To start the week off on a positive note…lol…I want to talk about the power of positive thinking. Different people use different terms for the same concept – positive affirmations and manifestation are two examples that come to my mind – but it’s all basically about keeping your vibrational frequency high, so you can attract like energy, and you can invite the good that you envision for yourself into your life.
I will try not to go too far down the rabbit hole today, we’ll save that for future discussions, but let’s establish one undeniable fact:
“The law of conservation of energy, also known as the first law of thermodynamics, states that the energy of a closed system must remain constant – it can neither increase or decrease without interference from the outside. The universe itself is a closed system, so the total amount of energy in existence has always been the same. The forms that energy takes, however, are constantly changing.” (Moskowitz, 2014, para. 2).
We are energy.
I have found that when I keep my heart open, and do my best to stay positive, raising my vibrational energy, my days are generally better. I now sleep with music playing that is at 500 Hertz or above. I sleep better, and I wake more rested (I used to have some crazy ass dreams every, single, night, and I would wake up exhausted from them…lol). Perhaps it’s the placebo effect, but hey, it’s working, so I am going to continue to roll with it.
By focusing on the positive, I have also begun receiving “breadcrumbs” from the universe. I simply ask God to give me strength and guidance, knowing that the challenges that I am and have been facing for the last several years are happening for me, not to me – changing that mindset was a HUGE help for me – and trust that He knows my path, and will provide for my needs. Is it always what I want, when I want it, NO…lol…but it’s enough, and eventually all of those crumbs will add up to something wonderful. A number of people that I have studied refer to this; the lows that are followed by the highs, the battle that leads to the blessing, and I will share their work and specific examples in the weeks to come.
Back to the story…lol. Today, I started out in a bit of a funk. My mom has dementia. She’s had it for years, but she had a medical emergency in 2024, and it accelerated her decline overnight. I don’t live near my parents, and I only get to visit a few times a year (by choice, more on that later), but I do speak with them regularly, so I know what my mom is like. It really hit me hard yesterday though, when we spoke. She couldn’t find her voice, she was searching for simple words, and all she was trying to tell me was that she enjoyed watching the old, gnarled tree outside of their kitchen window. My brother and his family had literally just walked out the door when I called, and she couldn’t remember if my niece and nephew has been with them. She wasn’t any worse then “normal”, but I guess, because it was Mother’s Day, it just hit different.
My parents are not perfect, but my mom is a good person, and it’s hard to see her like this, knowing that she is still in there, but is being held prisoner in her own mind.
I know that it’s hard on my dad too. They have been married for over 50 years, and have never spent more than a few nights apart, so when she forgot who he was and that they were married earlier this year, I know it broke his heart, but at least he knows what is happening and why. My mom does not. Most of the time she is still very happy. Yesterday she was giggling at herself when she couldn’t remember the words, but there are times when she has a moment of lucidity. Times where she knows that something is very wrong, but she doesn’t know what, and it very much upsets her. Can you imagine how that must feel? Fortunately, my mom also trusts God to guide her, so I know that her soul is being cared for and loved by Him. That is the only thing that makes the situation tolerable for me.
So, I get off of the phone, and I am met with Mr. Hope’s sour mood. Mr. Hope is a glass-half-empty person, and he definitely chose to wake up on the wrong side of the bed yesterday. That mood rolled over into today, and being an intuitive or sensitive person, it isn’t just his actions that affect me when he is in a bad mood, I physically feel it, and it drains me. Sometimes I wish that he could understand how blessed he is, how much worse it could be, etc., etc., but we all have our own lessons to learn in this life, and I believe that this is somehow related to one of his.
On days like today, I have to work extra hard to remain positive, but I do! I begin each day with expressing gratitude. It is incredibly important to let God, the universe, whatever you believe in know that you aren’t just there asking for favors like a whiny brat when you want or need something, but that you are also grateful for all that you have, no matter how much or how little that might be. Matthew 25:29 states:
“For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. But the one who does not have, even what he has will be taken away from him.” (BSB Matthew 25:29)
I read this as, those of us who acknowledge that we have, no matter how small, and are thankful for it, will receive more, an abundance! How amazing will that be! But those of us that believe that we have nothing, even when we do have something, will lose it all.
I was up before Mr. Hope, so when I did see him I was kind – I know that I annoy him when he’s like this, because I always go out of my way to say good morning, and put him in a place where he kind of has to say it back…lol – but otherwise stayed away from him as much as possible, until it was time to take the doggo to daycare. I hopped into my truck and tuned into The Message on Sirius XM. I jammed out to some great music with my canine copilot, and my day immediately got better.
On the way to daycare, I swung by the post office, and there was a breadcrumb there waiting for me, and that my friends, is the power of positive thinking in action! Was it something life changing, no, but it’s the bump I needed to get me through today, and allow me to look forward to tomorrow. That’s the beauty of all of this. I am in the midst of battle, but I am not alone. There is an amazing blessing waiting for me at the end – I have faith that God and his breadcrumbs will get me there - and I cannot wait to see what that blessing is 😊.
I wish you all the same. Please stay strong and positive through your battles, so that you too, may experience the blessings that are waiting for you!
Much love to all of you, with Hope and Faith!
Moskowitz, C. (2014, August 5) Fact or Fiction?: Energy Can Neither Be Created Nor Destroyed. Scientific America. https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/energy-can-neither-be-created-nor-destroyed/