Another week has passed, and earlier today I was reminded of the truth in one of my favorite mantras, “God will provide.” Things are tight around here at the moment; they have been since early spring of 2025, yes, because of fallout from the nightmare job from Hell. Yet, that statement is, and has been proven to be true in my life more times than I can count over the last year.
Thanks to The Chosen, Matthew is my favorite apostle. Matthew was Jewish, but he worked for the Romans in Capernaum as a tax collector, so he was not popular amongst his people...lol. Fortunately for him, Jesus asked Matthew to follow him, and the rest is history, which we can read for ourselves in the Book of Matthew.
Matthew 6:25-30 talks about this. Matthew writes that Jesus said to his followers:
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life, or single cubit to your height?"
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?" (Matthew 6:25-30 NIV).
We don’t have to worry about the material things in our lives, because God will always provide for our needs if we simply have faith in Him.
Yes, this has been a very hard lesson for me to learn. As I have already stated, I was a control freak, and I am admittedly still working on that, but I can tell you that my faith in the Lord and knowing that He has and always will provide for me, is the only reason that I am still vertical today.
In January of 2024, I had an 830 something credit score. Our HELOC had nothing on it. All of our personal credit cards were paid off. The business was in the black. I thought we had finally figured this shit out. Boy, was I wrong!
My credit score now hoovers in the low to mid 700s, depending on what I am charging where at the moment. Our HELOC was refinanced in January, and it was then maxed out to help restructure the business debt, along with maxing out all of our existing personal cards – and a couple of new ones – to take advantage of 0% balance transfers, none of which would have been possible without the help of family.
The business is barely scraping by. Work is finally picking up, now that the weather has broken, but without a miracle, I still don't know how it will recover.
Ten years ago, this would have emotionally - and probably physically, if I am being honest…lol – crippled me. How could I allow someone to take away all that we had worked so hard to build. But guess what? I have God in my life now, and I have learned that this isn’t happening to us, it is happening for us. We have lessons to learn here. And you want to know how I know that this is true? Because God continues to provide what I need, when I need it.
I got another breadcrumb today. Prompt payment for the concrete job we did on Monday. I had enough in the bank to cover payroll for next week, but not much more, when I woke up this morning. I prayed to God, asking Him for strength and guidance, like I do every day, and I told myself that I have no reason to worry, no reason to fear, because He will provide, and He did, just like He always does.
Would I like to be back where we were financially in January of 2024? YES! But apparently, that is not what I/we need right now, so I am going to continue to put my faith in the Lord, live my best life, and know that He will give me what I need, when I actually need it, which might not be when I want it…lol.
“A Psalm of David. The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.” (Psalm 23:1 KJB).
Much love to all of you, with Hope and Faith